Melancholy

I'm thinking of giving up on the whole art thing and just looking for some shitty joe-job.

I feel so unhappy. I feel so sad all the time. I miss my dad... I can't seem to work up the will to work on things no matter how hard I try and... I just think no matter what, no matter how hard I try. I am going to fail. I am just always going to fail. Like running underwater.

I just don't know how long I can keep holding my breath.